Give Me the Strength to Be Weak
Years ago I read a song by this title, and I had no idea how much relevance it would come to have in my life. I have to confess, I hate being weak, and I hate having to depend on other people. I’m the person others get to depend on, and that works well for my identity. But God had different plans this last month. I have had some debilitating back pain, something new for me. I’ve had to reevaluate my fast-paced schedule, and recognize how much God is letting me know that I am a “human being,” not a “human doing.” I’m discovering more every day the different facets of the verse, “Be still and know that I am God.” One translation reads, “Cease striving and know that I am God.” I guess God knew I wouldn’t cease striving and be still if I wasn’t stuck in a chair. He’s right, and I am learning a lot. I opened up Jesus Calling book yesterday and here is what I read:
“Make me the focal point of your search for security. In your private thoughts, you were still trying to order your world so that it is predictable and feel safe. Not only is this an impossible goal, but it is also counterproductive to spiritual growth. When you’re private world feels unsteady and you grip my hand for support, you are living in conscious dependence on me.
Instead of yearning for a problem-free life, rejoice that trouble can highlight your awareness of my presence. In the darkness of adversity, you are able to see more clearly the radiance of my face. Accept the value of problems in this life, considering them pure joy, (James 1:2) Remember that you have an eternity of trouble-free living awaiting you in heaven.
Psalm 139: 9-10, “ f I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.”
Resting, well, trying to rest in Jesus,
Linda